In the midst of the Meh!

 

I’m not a big lover of posting videos, I like to share my music tastes as the ‘In my music bubble’ page shows, but I didn’t like having to make people watch things. A few others have been sharing their music using you tube video’s and I realised it was actually a great way to share the songs here. How could I have been so stupid, I mean how did I think people were going to find my offerings. Stupid cow, can I blame the fact that I am an eejit? Thank you Rob and NBI for opening my eyes :)

I’ve been feeling a little off kilter for the past couple of weeks. I can’t seem to put my finger on why, but my happiness meter is nowhere near where it should be. I suppose I can take some comfort from the fact that I am able to recognize the dips, I’ve had them before.

Even before my friend came on holiday, my posting had been a little sporadic, mainly because of the way I had been feeling.

I would describe myself as two halves, on one hand you have the person you all know, the jokey one, who gets a kick from entertaining and loves all the interaction.

On the other hand you have the constant worrier. The older I get, the worse it gets. This half still loves all the interaction, but doesn’t feel particularly deserving of it, in fact I think you’re all nuts and hiding behind rose tinted glasses lol I still get scared to comment, even though I know in my heart of hearts you will understand me and get what it is I am trying to say. This half is eternally grateful to you all, well actually both halves are, because you all make me feel grounded and a part of something. I adore the interaction. You’ve helped my quiet side step out from the shadows.

I wanted this blog to be a happy place, I didn’t want to bring my other side in, however the downside of that, is that when you are feeling a little ‘meh’ you either don’t want to write or feel that you can’t.

It’s stupid that I should put restrictions on myself, at the end of the day this is my blog and I can write what I want. I don’t need to seek approval. Anyone who is a friend will accept me for all the parts of me, not just the ones I chose to show at any given time. There are no hard and fast rules that state I have to be happy all the time, although given the choice and a slightly less wonky top box, that would be the preferred option.

I am my own worst critic, of that there is no doubt. I am never happy, no matter how well I do at something, but I am going to try and make changes. At the end of the day, if I don’t feel comfortable within myself, how can I expect others to be comfortable around me. I am in awe of the eejits that have already pulled up their recliners and settled down around me, you are more than welcome, now put the kettle on would ya? I brought biscuits!

I’m telling you this because I want to. I’m letting you know that in the life of The Indecisive Eejit, whilst it is always indecisive, it is not always rainbows and unicorns. I’m preparing you for the fact that I might let the blog ship sail on stormy days and not just the sunshine ones.

I’m also, if we go right back to the beginning of this post and how it started out, sharing a you tube video of the latest song I like listening to whilst I am wallowing around in the big pond of mehness that surrounds me.

I hope you like it too and thank you for being here, you complete and utter bunch of eejits :)

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15 thoughts on “In the midst of the Meh!

  1. From one *eejit* if I may kindly borrow the term) to another … hey – look *girlfriend* – stop and give yourself a fecking break, eh? You’re allowed to be “meh” or “blah” or “dopey” or “fecking madder than a pig on stilts” … JUST BE YOURSELF! (sorry, not shouting).

    Post WHAT you want – WHEN you want. Seriously …. if this space is reflection of you – then all bits and fiddly pieces will eventually show through – and that’s all good. If all you ever posted was sunshine and daisies – well, we’d never be able to put the kettle on and have a chat eh? Besides …. BE YOURSELF seems to be the cardinal rule in writing, blogging and well … life ….

    So hugs to you … the kettle is about to whistle – what kind of tea you be wantin’? ;)

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    • Honestly, you wanted me to take you seriously after you used the phrase ‘fecking madder than a pig on stilts’. I started laughing and couldn’t stop ffs. Can I have that as my tag line? I loves it lol
      I hear what you are saying though and thank you very much, it means a lot. Oh how I’d love to call round for a cuppa, only it would have to be coffee, me no like the tea! lol
      P.s It’s kinda hard to be yourself when you’re not 100% sure who that is lol Yeoooo for the wonky top box!! lol

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      • *snorts* …. you may certainly use the line as your tag … please I’d be honoured (pesky ‘U’ pesky ‘U’ )

        hope the uncontrollable laughter caused no mishaps, ya know ;)

        Coffee it is then … whatever floats your boat, eh?

        Wonky Top Boxes Rule!!!

        Ass for the P.S. – we all are works in progress – we are who we are in the moment – no more – no less – …… as the Oracle runs off to brew some coffee ;)

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